"Well, Hello there world. How are you doing on this fantastic morning?" This is how I normally start my mornings, just to make myself feel better about what's out there.
Monday 31 January 2011
Thursday 27 January 2011
lost and found
I like to believe that sometimes people get lost by accident. Other times I like to believe that people get lost to gain pity.
I get lost to have an adventure. In this country it's kind of hard to get lost (and stay alive) just to have some fun.
Everyone is always in too much of a hurry to get any type of enjoyment out of the seemingly ordinary. Going places and talking to people have become a kind of taboo. Or you're just trying to get some. I make a point of talking to strangers, it gives people the chance to say what they feel or it just really creeps them out. I have very rarely met a person that will just talk if they've dialed the wrong number or just bump into someone they find interesting.
A new adventure has started two days ago now. The journey home. These past almost 13 months a lot of things have changed. I am no longer placating other people. I have more self confidence to be who I am and damn the people that think a chipper person in Afghanistan is a "sin." I am now not tied to a relationship. And I, in truth, am happy with myself. People that I once depended on and trusted are now in the gutter. I have a new world of people that I enjoy being around and would talk to about almost anything. The sad part is that most of them are leaving soon after we get back, so I may have to start from block one all over again. Oh well, we will all enjoy the time we have while we have it. The life of the Army will always amaze me. But deployments are awesome for deep thinking and awesome friendships to form.
So in short, I think I have learned to enjoy being myself no matter what other people have to say, no matter what myself truly is. I don't give a damn about social structures and trying to fit in with people that don't care about anything but what others think about them. Happiness was lost to be before this whole deployment and I think, through hours of thought and hateful thoughts towards others, I have found what I need to be happy with myself.
I get lost to have an adventure. In this country it's kind of hard to get lost (and stay alive) just to have some fun.
Everyone is always in too much of a hurry to get any type of enjoyment out of the seemingly ordinary. Going places and talking to people have become a kind of taboo. Or you're just trying to get some. I make a point of talking to strangers, it gives people the chance to say what they feel or it just really creeps them out. I have very rarely met a person that will just talk if they've dialed the wrong number or just bump into someone they find interesting.
A new adventure has started two days ago now. The journey home. These past almost 13 months a lot of things have changed. I am no longer placating other people. I have more self confidence to be who I am and damn the people that think a chipper person in Afghanistan is a "sin." I am now not tied to a relationship. And I, in truth, am happy with myself. People that I once depended on and trusted are now in the gutter. I have a new world of people that I enjoy being around and would talk to about almost anything. The sad part is that most of them are leaving soon after we get back, so I may have to start from block one all over again. Oh well, we will all enjoy the time we have while we have it. The life of the Army will always amaze me. But deployments are awesome for deep thinking and awesome friendships to form.
So in short, I think I have learned to enjoy being myself no matter what other people have to say, no matter what myself truly is. I don't give a damn about social structures and trying to fit in with people that don't care about anything but what others think about them. Happiness was lost to be before this whole deployment and I think, through hours of thought and hateful thoughts towards others, I have found what I need to be happy with myself.
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